Surrender Yourself to the Right Flow..

Surrender myself to the right flow. Hmmm~ That's what the magic box said. Current flow in the FO is the "sui sui" flow. Not the kind of cantik "sui sui" but bad luck "sui sui". Gosh~ It's almost 2 months d I'm in this "13th Friday" situation. Jz wondering how long more it going to last. Damn cannot take it anymore la..

Swear under my own life. Just 1 more case I'll be gone & it's going to b good to b gone. I'm at this max stage with all the fucking phD that only noe how to back stab & take credit for others. One more time from her then I'm gonna make sure she live in hell. Damn I hate bitches [both human & animal]!!!

Dear Sh****ni, if you don't know about this just yet then let me tell you- Your such a mother fucking back stab bitch!!! Bare in your mind, God is watching & that's someone else husband that you're dating!

Pokai & Stress All in One

Oh well, this is exactly how I am now after settling the cukai pintu for my mom that God only know how it can sum up to RM 1k+. I'm wondering for how many years they didnt pay for it. God, my salary all gone. Now I hope the house will end up b mine one day *.*

Working life is getting suck. This place is so short in manning & the current staffs working is either too stubborn to listen to d senior on how to get things done or jz too good in drama trying to escape from doing more task. Arggghhhhhh~ I'm tired, so fucking tired.

Oh hell yeah. That's what I feel now. Fucking fucking stress with whatsoever that I'm doing.

I need a holiday. An escape from work & whatsoever. Something like this minus the dogs coz I hate animal. Not that I abuse them but I jz dislike them coz they like to lick u & they like to slide in between ur leg without pre warn u 1st. I always scream when cat slide through my leg when I'm at hawker stall. Sometime make me wanna kick them back to Bahrain but I didnt n that explain why they're still alive =P

p/s: pics credit to wanwan and onionclub.

Missing you.. So much.. So much..

It is really torturing to miss somebody..
I miss spending time with him;
I miss his kiss;
I miss his hugs;
I miss his cuddles;
I miss him asking me where to have our breakfast, lunch & dinner;
I miss how he fall asleep on d sofa while I on9;
I miss how his snores comfort me to sleep;
I just miss his everything.

Mangkuk!!! Let me know when u'll be free okay so we can get some rest time aka holiday together pls. But make sure u off ur phone so Dato' & the rest of d ppl from d hotel won't b able to call u & disturb us.

>.< I MISS YOU LA MANGKUK >.<

I miss sleeping, yeah I really do.
Been working overnight all night long & I'm still awake til now.
It's back, my lovely insomnia.
How I wish I could chase u away together with the unknown emo-ness.
I'm feeling what I used to feel but I donno how to make myself feel better.
Ppl, bare with me probably for another week or so.

I believe I'll be fine.
I jz need to stop thinking things that I dont even noe what I'm thinking,
Stop wondering on things that I dont even noe what I'm wondering and jz be how I used to be.

Mayb cutting down on food is d main reason why I feel emo.
The side effect of unbalance diet.
Argghhhh~ I miss eating but I dont have d appetite anymore.
I got this stupid gastric again every time I eat.
Everything is back to how it used to be except that I'm more clumsy & more careless now.

Shit!!! I need to cheer up & stay cool.

From my dearie random brain

I feel so sick.

Yes, indeed I am sick I guess.

Just can't wait to get out of all these non senses.

My mistakes, all those careless mistakes.
I'm sure they appear for a reason.
I just don't feel like the same me anymore.
At least I'm not d only one who notice this.
I'm lacking & I'm definitely losing grip on this.

Mayb is time to let go & let loose...

Bad Luck day

1st I missed my stop & realize about it when it almost reach Putrajaya [I stay in Puchong]. For the 1st time since Form 4, I've been sleeping in d buses & nvr miss a single stop but today I pecah record. Wake up in this place that I barely recognize then only realized that I'm long way passed my stop. Nvr been this scared in my life but today is really an experience. At least I know where's putrajaya sentral now =P

2nd I have this dumb "why didn't generate advance bill" thing that disturb my already not so well sleep. Really make me wanna vomit la. Working with ppl that's so good in "washing hand" make me stress to d max. I think I need some rest at home. I need my holidays but I dont think it's gonna b approve seeing that manning is super insufficient now. The best way to ensure that I get my holiday will be quitting d job.

If only I can kill every single arse hole that disturbed my sleep, every single biatch that annoyed me & every single idiot that doesn't know how to settle problem without disturbing others.

Damn!~ What a bullshit day!

Tonight gonna be my last overnight shift for this month. Ordered Dominos as my dinner & eat alone. Hmmmm.. I miss him. Miss having him next to me while I eat. Miss forcing him to finish d balance of my food. Nvr mind, gonna c him later in d hotel. I want a HUG!!!

TEAK MINT checking out at 0400hrs later. I'll b working with NBH, Ally, my darling, barbie & Jim-d-Pondan again. Hehe~ Overnight shift nvr been this fun.

Gosh~ I think I need to take a nap before I get ready but I'm chatting with my darling & it's nice since we dont really get d chance to do so in OWH.

Hmmm~ I shall crash ur room later during my breaktime. At least get a lil hug & sleep. Miss ur snoring la idiot =P

Dream & be inspired

How I wish life could be tat simple. Just keep dreaming and dreaming and dreaming...

Oh well, it's not so knock head & wake up now...

This is another sickening Monday, another sickening start of d week with me working night shift...

I owez end up emo whenever I work night shift, sigh~~~

It's me, Ruby & Suzaini tonight. At least I dont hav to work with zombie & wicked wig, cheers~
I wont b scared by ghost, cheers~ I dont hav to force myself talking to ppl I hate, cheers~ I dont hav to b a good listener listening to her BS, cheers~ I dont hav to b a pretender pretending tat I'm interested with her very d boring he's my man story, cheers!!! Oh witch, he's married & I hope u know it which I'm sure u know it but u jz pretend u dont. Gosh~ How pathetic...

This is another random post with another random thoughts of mine on another random day. It's jz RANDOM or should I say boring day...

Hop Joyfully While Walking

Oh well, that's wat d magic box said: "Hop joyfully while walking". I guess it means I need to stay cheerful or in another sense that I need to show my idiotic to d world. Who would hop while walking? It's not like I'm 12yrs old or smtg.

But hell, I had fun last weekend. Going out with my darling & my gay friend on Sat and make that gay ass to spell out every single one of his secrets is really fun. I had a good laugh & it feel nice to start drinking again. Hmmmmm...

Supposed to get the spect done for baby on Sunday but end up crashing my AM's & supervisor's drinking session. Well, at least now I noe wat's crash & crushed. Hahaha~ Had my margaritas in Chili's & continue with my donno-wat shaker in TGI. Hell yeah, for d 1st time of my life I'm high & half way to London. Gosh, Alice's a good drinker. 6 Malibu surf in 1 hr and still standing. We shall do this again some other time but it's gotta be all of us.

Kelly, Jim, Nik, Ally & Alice, I'm sending out invitation. Oh well, moisturizer & night cream are not allowed so pls leave ur face clean & those who I call moisturizer, I dont wish to see u there coz u're slow & u speak weird language.

Anyway, thanks u bitches for spending d weekend with me. Really had a good time. Thanks B for willing to waste ur previous time with me. I'll always love u bitches =)

You call it spy I call it backstabber biatch

Surprisingly this someone call me last Sat after such a long time & that someone found out abt my blog on Mon. To b honest I'm not that surprise with this probably bcoz someone had already pre warned me abt her but Ms. R, u really disappoint me to d max. I hope from now on u can stay away from me. I dont really noe wat u can get from doing all these back stabbing & back bitching but it really shows that u're one tat's totally not trustworthy- work wise & in personal life.

MYOB plssss. If u're interested with him too then u're welcome to steal him from me [That's only if u can steal him from me]. Live a life okie, at least I didnt disturb urs.

Carlorina Yuen is now Carlorina Yuan

Someone proudly wrong spelled my name today. Gosh~ Totally unacceptable as this person should noe me the best or for at least noe how to spell my name correctly.

Mr. A.K.M, one day I'll spell ur name as Ahmed Khatuddin Muse!

Celaka betul!

Oh I feel like heaven

Experiencing the incredible mixture of headache & gastric. Really makes me feel like heaven. Probably bcoz I'm already one step in & another on the way *.*

Hmm. I think I update too much in a day. Gosh~ Really bad headache. I think my antibody is going down hill. Wonder what happened coz this stupid gastric is back to attack although I eat like a pig [oops~ sensitive word. Swine is d latest trend katanya].

I'm sleepy now but got to work & this bloody Padini group made a last min changes. Sengal giler babi la. Kalo esok bilik x ready I sumpah x kan stay back. Pergi mampus la kalo group screw up it's totally non of my biz. D person who made d last min changes pergi make up room & remove the minibar on ur own la.

Next station, Bangkok?

Hmmm~ Good advance for ur career but if u really get the offer then I'll hav to break d news to my mom woh. Wondering if she can handle it...

Contemplating contemplating~~~

Anyway, OWH is not to stay. Will have to leave still but u think my mom will approve ar?? Aiyo, ini btol2 big project ni. Stress kepala aku! How to start, where to start? Mayb I should start drafting my storyline.

Happy Harpie Happi 3 months

Mr. A.K.M
Happy 3 months together!!!
100th daysery in 10 days time..
Wooooo~ Cant wait..
Heart you so damn much!!!
Love ♥ you, always!!!

Sucky broadband

Hmmm.. Maxis broadband sucks to d max for d past few days. Mayb bcoz I've been cursing a lot so they wanna train me to b more patient kot. Dh la suka-suka dia je nak disconnect, dh connect oso need to wait till forever for d page to load. Itu pon load x complete. Aduhai~ Buat aku stress saje...

Want to browse for job in Jobstreeet.com but keep on "page cannot b display". Cam ne nak cari keje ni?? Ooh btw an almost 30yrs old lady might will b going up to d club floor to cross train as a GRO. My twin is super upset with it. Well, seems like my boss plan to make me, her & another China mali stay at d dummy reception n b a support team [or most likely to perform as trainer la but tat's only if I train. Well, tahap kesabaran saya tdk mencukupi to train those who's slow n those who love to act dumb]. I'm jz not born to b a trainer I guess.

Oh ya, need to check out driving academy too. Hmmm... Someone been pushing me to take d course. Mayb I really should.

Sigh~ Night shift is not fun but anyway I'll b busy tonight with d Padini group & also busy sending email for d morning report & FCS report. Hahaha~ Thanks bulat for teaching me. Ko la paling cute kat OWH.